Coming to the end of my journey

Well, this is the sign that I received this week. And what's the sign?

Spiritually and mentally I'm very much alive but physically I'm wrecked :) All the fatigue along the journey from Sumatera-Jawa-Kalimantan-Jawa and now I'm ended up in Bali put my body into exhaustion. Actually last sunday when I made my journey to Bali, I had high fever at night which continued to yesterday (thursday). When the night came my body radiated heat that I felt so strong especially in my legs, hands and in my face around my eyes that I have to cool them down. And during the day, my body seem to be on strike that to move around it feels very painful.

Yes, I got the message. My machine needed to be overhauled. I need to rest. So almost every night after coming back from the shop, I just lying down and let my body enjoy the resting and hopefully recovered. Even so, my mind tried seek the understanding though my soul enjoy the tranquility within. Last night, while my eyes was still radiated heat that I'd rather close them, and my fingers were too tired to type any letters on keypad, there my mind was reading the sign from my soul that was wide awake and walking her own path.

A journey to fulfill the Divine decree

Because all of a sudden she reminded me of a picture long ago I think now is about 12years back - about a knight traveling on a horse. Well, it was me as my friend interpreted it going to make a journey. As if this episode of life was the culminating of that journey. As if I was meant to stop here and have my body healed by Him Alone. You see all those journey wasn't of my wish, it was the wish of the Divine I merely materialized what was written for me. So when coming to the end of it, I'm wrecked, He has prepared me with the medicine and taken good care of me by healing me in His own way.

How does He heal me?

By preparing me the natural herbs that I need to restore me. It fits me well because it works better when my stomach is empty. All I need to do was just drinking lots of water at least 2lt. Eating is something that I have to think and see if my stomach is hungry, otherwise I hardly take big meal.

As I take the herbs something else was happening. In some parts of my head, I gets this pulsing pain. As the instruction given it is a sign that the herbs has found the root cause, I should keep using it. So there I was lying down and having my left brain fixed hehehe.... feeling the pulsing pain that once in a while coming and my mind can't help wondering what's going on, what I will be transformed into. This is because the testimony given by men after using the herbs on average that their libido were getting a lot better and one even said that he had been cured from impotent. So here I'm lying helpless and just rest my faith to the kindness of Allah thinking what will happen to me and my libido?! Hehehe... Will I be more woman than before?! How will I know?! What a sordid thought.

Talked about journey, I know we still have 5 other provinces to visit for their regional conference but hopefully my other males colleagues or my trained staff can replace me. And I also know I may still make some traveling to fulfill my responsibility before I make my other journey which is homeward.

For now, I have to delegate some of my responsible to my staff, avoid the invitation from my local friends here to attend their social gathering, send the files that I prepared for IMQ-students instead of having me in front of them and I have to excuse myself to not attending the ceremony of establishing the school building that is going to happen on sunday morning.

To finish one journey
and start another kind of journey

I may not be able to support my colleagues to have the writing on journalism-training on 6nov by being there. At least I had linked the two to make it happen. The other one that is another month to go is the islamic new year. There has been two events scheduled, one is the handing over of a new building for the orphan to study that we had built this year in celebrating the islamic new year and the following day is the public sermon to celebrate the islamic new year. I have promised my friend that I will stay with her in her friend's house in Kediri during the events. And that will be on 1st and 2nd Dec. Hopefully I'm fully recovered by then. Because I plan to stay in Bali while doing my only work assignment at the shop for a month or two.

I know I have always been looked after :)

Thank you Lord.